Today was one of the most beautiful days ever.

I finally graduated from John Bowne Highschool. I'm so proud of everyone that graduated with me. I can't be more happier than I already am for each and one of them. So much memories that will never be forgotten but become a blur but I will forever remember how everyone made me feel. Ahhhh, it feels so good to know I have my diploma, great people in my life, all my regents done and just smiles all over. Walking up and across the stage was so nerve racking but I had lovely cheers and it made me feel so good about myself like " yes, I finally did it. ME, Janiri Jerez did it" and also " don't fall, don't fall, don't fall" haha. My dad, my mom, my brother and his girlfriend and my boyfriend all came to my graduation to cheer me on and share that experience with me. I wish my sister had come along but I understand how things are and she was with me in my thoughts. <3 I miss her dearly. My dad had bought me this trophy thing with my name in the back and I cried. Not because of saddness but because of how happy I was and am and how cute it was. Ahh, I love my family and all my lovely friends who I've choice to stick with. I took enough pictures but not enough. :/ I didn't take some pictures with some people because whether they left or I lost them. Ugh, but I hope hanging out with them sums it all up. The speeches at graduation were quite inspiring with so much spirit. I adored when our class 2011 would yell and root for graduating. I'm currently uploading pictures on facebook and rambling off here. After graduation, We all went to a buffet, very random but so wonderful. I didn't take pictures because I forgot and everyone was sooo hungry so we just enjoyed eachothers company and ate like no tomorrow. I hope I have more times like that. I have to thank my mom and dad for everything they have given me. I love them so much. I love everyone so damn much. I love this feeling, when you love everyone.

so excited my toes are curling.

cant wait for tomorrow<3333333333333333333333333

Long hair enough to cover my boobs when I come out the shower
Ring pops and ice-cream sandwiches to devour on
Cupcakes and beer to rely on
Cigarettes and weed to swell on
Wine to feel sexy on
Music to transfer my heart through my throat
Love from one a other
Smiles and hugs from each other
Kisses to remember
Burs to fuzz about
Hold hands to survive
Movies and books to learn from
Drive ins anything to adore about
Hats and long dresses to embrace upon
Friendships to do
Lies to untie
Free from forever

The love that you have for someone for years is the cutest.

Great news as to speak.

Okay, so I passed my regents finally. All of them, wooo. I'm so happy and proud of myself. Although, I struggled and guess my way through the math regent but who gives a damn. As long as I passed, I'm so happy about it. Now I am finally graduating with the class I came in with. Ahh, such an amazing feeling when I can be able to say that. I just drank a cup of coffee with milk which I have been doing every morning basically. Today, I'm going to bowne to drop off my earth science text book and then coming back home. Until later on, I'll be going to BMCC to register for classes with my cousin Ashley. That, I'm nervous about but in a really good way because I'm finally growing up a tad bit and I'm going to start doing my own shit for a while on my own. All I need is a job. To support all my needs. I have everything all lovely going for me. My boyfriend, my family, my friends, this summer and school wise. Like I have said before, everything is falling into place and it's making me feel right. I'm still working on my room downstairs. It's being delay because of my brother so I have to hurry him up. There's so much events that I'll be attending too this summer<3 Ahhh, I really need to have a picnic soon and invite lovely people to central park.

have to be stronger than this.

My turtle's tank smell like the beach and I love it. I don't like it when I have to clean it though because it's quite heavy. I woke up really happy today and early. I've been waking up really early lately, sleeping so little as well. I'm drinking coffee now and I'm going to get back to painting my old room downstairs all white. Im painting it white so I can be able to draw all my ideas on the wall. I have alot so I'm really excited. :)

I watched The science of sleep yesterday and now i'm watching this other movie Mammoth. :)I woke up really earlier today, despite my three hour sleep.

My hearts ache so quickly.

My heart trenches when I'm overly happy
My heart aches when I'm completely shattered with actions
For it to be told, I adore you so
I can't stand without being hold
A kiss is what I always desire
Sweet lies beneath  those eyes
So low and so cold
Show me with what I've been hungry for
Disappoint me with what I've been ignoring for
High off blissfulness
I dance on my tiptoes
Now I bare with walking
Because truth to be told, I adore you so

I don't mean to abandon you but life is just way to sweet.

Everything has been falling into it's perfect little place. All smiles and happiness. There are moments of course that I just need to meditate or a need a good cry just to cleanse my soul and mind but other than that everything is more than great. School is almost done and now I have to take care of my regents and see how that goes. This summer is going to be really amazing. I'm sure of it. Ahhhh<3

I love this.

Prom night. I feel so beautiful, getting all ready!

Why is it that when I pick my boogers, I feel like I can be in there for days.

I'm always so tired now.

Okay, So I am staying home today from school because I really feel like I should. I haven't been this stressed about school in such a long time. But enough of complaining. I have to finish up my 7 to 10 page essay and make sure it sounds really good. Enough to get an A. Fuck all that B and under. Also, I'm going to review my ass off for Global and Algebra. Later on today, I'm finally going to pick up my prom dress from being tailor and lets see how that comes off. I have to figure some things out for this week coming. But study, study, and study is my main focus right now.

I'm just being really lazy today. Two more days for prom and like a week and a half for regents. I'm sick so I'm just laying in my bed right now, wishing my boyfriend was here to make me soup and just take care of me. I'm sleepy and I think I'm going to nap soon. Today has been one of those days, that you just feel ugly.

Beautiful breezy chill days with boyfriend.

People always call me reckless because I always go by with what feels right and never with the thought of what is going to happen tomorrow.