I love being nude.

It's embarrassing to know that you act a bit older then one of your parents or both. Like, come on, grow up a bit or handle your situations a bit different and more civilized. Anger clutters your spiritual growth. I'm spending this whole week looking for a job. Ah, tomorrow is August already. Milton's birthday is coming up soon and so is my dad's. I have a few ideas already that I'm going to get them.

All my bones are swirling into the outlines of a butterfly wings. An orange one.

Wow, I don't think I was ever going to say this.

I'm not sure, quite sure, if I want to be a teacher anymore. Not that I don't have the passion for it anymore because it still burns inside of me but there's so much to life to not have my mind opened on everything around me. To have my mind set on one thing seems to close minded to me, for now at least. Where I am at life, I need breathing room. Life is to beautiful to not experience, go around, talk to others to see where your mind is really at and your heart, importantly. I'm starting to love cooking and it's not because of the food. Just the idea that I can pour my love into something that I'm making for someone that they will later eat and feel the love and tell me if they like it or not. I feel like when people don't like food it's because the person who cooked it didn't make it with enough love  on their mind. It's the truth, if you really look at it from where I'm standing. Other than that, I love animals. It's also the idea of giving love and taking care of something and making them smile. And I want to do something about that, taking care of them, keeping them out of the wild where danger resides. I'm also great at typing really fast and not looking at the keyboard and still writing perfectly because I know where all the letters are at, I can take that somewhere if I wanted too. But that's the thing, I don't want to be sitting down. I have so much passions inside of me and there going to keep growing and growing. I'm in such a loving  mood and I'm not even that happy right now which is odd because I can't help but feel good about writing all of this. It's Bob Marley, I tell you, it's him that's making me feel like this. To wake up feeling a bit blue and to want to listen to his songs and read upon all the things he has said before makes life smile at you. He wasn't a fool when he said that people are going to keep listening to his songs because it's true.

I can't help but smile.

All these feelings that I'm getting because of one person amazes me. Not because he isn't great or anything because trust me, he is. But just the whole idea of it coming from just one person makes me smile. How powerful anything can be if you let it is quite amazing actually. Milton has become a huge part of how I think and he is always lingering inside my thoughts. He has been a very positive person to my life. We make two months on wednesday, haha.

You expected me to be sad & stressed? awww now you mad, while I flex!

I'm in loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

with this feeling.

Everything that upsets you is temporal. You are temporal. I’m temporal. Nothing matters enough to consume anyone.

Why let something consume you when it won't be the same tomorrow, next week or next year? Why let your soul weigh down?

Just be happy. Yes, it is that easy.

I can't fucking sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

I'm going to the zoo tomorrow! yay!:) I've been dying to go so I'm pretty excited. I'm actually just hyper in general. Blah! everyone's sleeping even Milton. BOOOO. I'm really hungry. I want pizza, m&ms ( the yellow bag) and cupcakes. FuCk.

I miss my nose piercing. :(

Cleaned out my room.

I threw out so much things today and fixed everything in my new room. I threw out a lot of past away and it felt so good and refreshing to know it doesn't leach to me anymore. Examples as in clothes, letters and little gifts that I no longer needed to hold or save. My room is much left on a brighter note and lighter. I'm making room for new things in my life.

I really want some cupcakes though. Pretty huge ones.

FlowerChild

Little usless feelings

I've been over reacting lately and it's because i care so much. But shesh, I have to take it easy. Even though no one knows how Ive been getting lately, I need to cut it out. People always know the surface of this and they will for now.

Gut feelings are the best.

When I think about my boyfriend rapidly, it's usually when I see a cool trippy clothing and I'm like ' Milton would def love this' so I buy it because I like it too and I know he'll love it on me. Or when I see something trippy, I buy it for him because I know he'll freaking love it. I love when this happens, it's funny to me.

I adore when my boyfriend comes over to have dinner with me and get along with my family. I adore that he has a lot of respect towards them. Ahhh, all becoming one huge family. <3 What a blessing.

Tonight was one of those nights I love living for.

Me and my dad had a BBQ together. We blasted salsa, we drank and we talked all night long. I was pretty drunk. It was and felt so nice being with him and enjoying the moment. I love him so much and I'm happy that our bond is always there no matter how long it has been since we've hung out. He kept asking for my boyfriend which made me really happy. I wouldn't know where I would be without him or my mom. Tonight felt like somewhat of the feelings I've yearned for a while. Which is, feeling like a daddy's girl. I hope we have more nights like tonight. Tomorrow I'm going to the beach with some of my cousins and some of my ladies. Milton, sadly works tomorrow but hopefully we get to have dinner tomorrow night. He has been one of the roots to my happiness. I'm adoring him more and more.

To live, to cheers, to love

Watching my boyfriend skate for a couple of hours was really sweet. I couldn't stop smiling or just looking at him or just waving at him when he was across the skate park. Our friend Porntip was sitting next to me and we were chatting away while both of our boys were skating.  It was so lovely. Porntip is the cutest out of the girl friends I've met so far. After that, going to a different art galleries yesterday where they sell you free wine and beer was so much fun. It was my second time doing so and I can't wait for next week. Porntip parents own a restaurant and we ate thai food there for free and omg, the food was beyond amazing. Everything was amazing. We had green tea ice cream and coconut ice cream on the side after everything. It was banging when you ate it together.  After eating, we went to battery park and lay down on the grass and went over the fence and sat on the very edge of the water. My feet were hanging off, I was scared shitless. But it was so much fun, I want to do it again and take a picture. I'm so happy and such a great aura is screaming out.

I adore how my dad thinks I can be a model and a singer.

July 4th, 2011.

I spent my July 4th with Milton and his awesome friends. I ended up liking all of his friends. They're friends I never had, literally. We all got really wasted playing flip the cup and just drinking. We hung out and ate so much bbq food. Later on, we went to some huge park around the area and hoped to see fireworks, we saw a few from far. We ended up leaving to get more wasted, but my drunk ass wanted icecream so milton bought me some. It was hell of a night but nonetheless, I had a great time. We had cake as well and hard brownies.


I'm currently getting dressed to go pick up milton from school and were going job hunting. <3

I dont need any money because I'm already rich with the love that I get from the people I love.

There's never a time limit to fall in love with someone and to tell them that. It does take time to learn how to love someone with everything they have to offer. I don't ever think anyone is foolish to say the three words no matter how early it is in a relationship or whatever connection you have with someone. If you feel it, you feel it. Love is way to beautiful to hold back. It's all about spreading the love, baby. There shouldn't be regret or confusion to any emotion you feel after getting hurt. You live and you learn how to love and be happy again. There's no shame in loving someone who hurts you or treats you bad. You just have to get up and leave. Love someone who is going to return it. Everyone deserves love no matter what they have done in their lives.


Take it easy and keep moving on with life.

so beautiful to come home when the sun is almost coming up.

I don't feel like it matters if I get overly flowing attention from other bitches and niggas. The attention that you give me doesn't make you the same as them, it makes me feel all happy inside when it's coming from you. 

Happy sweet July!

To the upcoming memories and drunken nights, woooo. I feel like watching anime. :o
I'm going to make plans happen this week with Johanna and Kathy.