I miss you to often to not love you.

Today was my first day of college.

You are officially looking at a college girl as I write this. My first class today was alright, I just didn't like it because I know I don't belong in that remedial class, I'm way much better then that. And clearly because I felt kinda stupid being there but anyway, I liked the idea that I was finally in college on my damn own. It felt really nice. After class, I went to some park near my school and laid down on the grass, barefoot and listening to reggae. I like how my classes look. I go to school on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday, leaving school at 1:40pm and then Saturday and Sunday, leaving at 12:45. I like how I have the whole afternoon for myself and for anything I need to do. Wednesdays and Fridays no school. But yes, so today after sitting and laying down on the grass for about two hours, I went to go get me a fruit salad. Some street dancing startled happening so I ended up watching. I later, met up with my friend Sara and we talked so much shit for like 3 hours until her next class, haha. <3 Ah, I can get use to this. Tomorrow, I have an official day of class since, today one of my classes got canceled. I brought things to entertain me for my two hour break. I want my financial money to hurry up.

I like being overly consumed with hearts from the right people.

My dad's birthday was two days ago.

Me and my dad's danced all night long. We had a BBQ and my big brother came over with his sons to surprise my dad. Me, my younger brother and his girlfriend bought him a card and gave it to him from us. It was tons of fun. I was happy that we all got to bond. Me and my big brother actually spoke and it was nice. We talked about tattoos and what's going on in our lives. It was just nice. I had a lovely time and I'm sure everyone else did too. We cooked so much food and blasted music. <3

I love how I can cook basically anything and everything now. They're a couple of dishes I don't know how to make yet but I will learn through out time. I've been so hooked on sims on facebook, it's so much fun when you don't have much to do. I'm going to the library today to get some books out.

When I get myself my own apartment, I know it's going to be filled with flowers, candles, art supplies laying around and a fire escape.

Best monday and first sleepover ever.

I'm beginning to feel weird again. I feel as if I'm being reborn and finding my ways. I'm a bit confused as well, not with anything that I have in my life at the moment but with my feelings. I feel out of place, in the sense that there's so much to do and I'm trying to do them all. I have to meditate more and take baby steps.

Creative people never get bored.

Finger Print.

Rolling down the grass has never felt so good.

I wanna have a long conversation with someone while I'm high.

I want some fried chicken. FUCK.

I can't stop listening to this song.

Ganjaaaaaaaa

I just finished watching the movie The Number 23 and holy shit, mind fucking. I love movies that I just run into and I end up liking it. With the twist, dark side.

My blog is my diary.

I'm so nervous for Milton's birthday.

But like the excited nervous. It's in 14 days and I just want him to have a great day along with the things I get him. And hopefully he likes them. He should because I'm getting it for him, haha. I'm thinking of picking him up from work and surprising him with a cute idea I have. I don't know, I don't know. Ahh<3


Summer is almost ending and I'm going to get a bike as my graduation gift and ride it all the way to I can't ride it anymore because it's that cold outside. I have yet to go to the zoo or the aquarium but I will before this summer ends.

A phonecall from him always lightens up my day.

Job hunting tomorrow. Meh, WHY CAN'T A JOB JUST APPEAR?!


I wish I had someone to go with and accompany me and feed my positive thoughts more. My boyfriend is working tomorrow so yeah. My brother is always with his girlfriend. Johanna goes to school now, for atleast this week. My sister is in Texas. I want a girl to accompany me because girls understand more on the "taking your time".  My few other friends fucking work. That's pretty much it.

RASTAAAAA

Heck yeah,

amazing way to end my day. With the most beautiful feeling ever and with the most knowledge of my boyfriend being so damn cute. Ahhh, swirling into his arms while he hovers to the side of me while were basted is the most beautiful awesome funny moment. I love it. I love everything about it. The fuzzy feeling that I feel like taking out of my stomach and hugging it, just so I can make sure it knows that I'm so happy and fuzzy with the feeling. Ahhhh, everytime we held hands, I felt like our veins were zooming into eachother and feeding off eachother's blood. I felt everything. The energy flowing all around us, I felt it everytime we touched. Ahhhh.

I feel like complete shit today.

Mind set, mind set, mind set, where are you?


Meh, massive job hunting today. We'll see how the day unfolds.

I wish I was able to meet Bob Marley.

He is such a beautiful man because of what he stood for and the words he spoke. Ah.

Happy August.

I'm such a happy mother fucking camper. Everything is just so beautiful and it's true, when you do have someone to share everything with makes everything so much more beautiful. Tomorrow, I'm waking up at 8 and I'm going to be in soho at 9ish and massive job hunting shall begin. I really need this. I'm so determine. I will get a job within two weeks. Mother fucking promise you that bitches $$$$$ haha.


Oh, My wisdom teeth hurt so much. ;( waaah