I can never get to personal here, as I've noticed. I can never give this blog full blunt details about my days, weeks, months, years and pains. Of course the endless happiness as well. I can never explain in full explanation why I feel a certain way and what's causing it. I don't want to sell my soul anymore. It's mine and only mine. No more sharing, offering the love I know to give but never give for myself. I need to devour myself in all that I know and learn from it before I even think of calling anyone mine. There are of course, reasons and good ones, why I feel this way. Why I have been feeling like this. It's just not me anymore, well for the moment at least. I don't mean the blogging or anything like that. I just mean the sharing and being in relationships and all that bullshit. It makes me vomit. Now, now, now, don't take me as I have lost all my hope for love because I haven't. It burns right on the pit of my stomach bigger and brighter than ever. But I'm just not ready to dance with anyone around this bonfire that sprouts. I come back and forth with you and I like it. I like that I can come here at anytime and anyday, pour my heart out to you and you won't say a thing back, just listen. You are such an amazing listener.
Don't take this as a goodbye, I will see you later from time to time.
I'm on a journey,
