have to be stronger than this.

My turtle's tank smell like the beach and I love it. I don't like it when I have to clean it though because it's quite heavy. I woke up really happy today and early. I've been waking up really early lately, sleeping so little as well. I'm drinking coffee now and I'm going to get back to painting my old room downstairs all white. Im painting it white so I can be able to draw all my ideas on the wall. I have alot so I'm really excited. :)

I watched The science of sleep yesterday and now i'm watching this other movie Mammoth. :)I woke up really earlier today, despite my three hour sleep.

My hearts ache so quickly.

My heart trenches when I'm overly happy
My heart aches when I'm completely shattered with actions
For it to be told, I adore you so
I can't stand without being hold
A kiss is what I always desire
Sweet lies beneath  those eyes
So low and so cold
Show me with what I've been hungry for
Disappoint me with what I've been ignoring for
High off blissfulness
I dance on my tiptoes
Now I bare with walking
Because truth to be told, I adore you so

I don't mean to abandon you but life is just way to sweet.

Everything has been falling into it's perfect little place. All smiles and happiness. There are moments of course that I just need to meditate or a need a good cry just to cleanse my soul and mind but other than that everything is more than great. School is almost done and now I have to take care of my regents and see how that goes. This summer is going to be really amazing. I'm sure of it. Ahhhh<3

I love this.

Prom night. I feel so beautiful, getting all ready!

Why is it that when I pick my boogers, I feel like I can be in there for days.

I'm always so tired now.

Okay, So I am staying home today from school because I really feel like I should. I haven't been this stressed about school in such a long time. But enough of complaining. I have to finish up my 7 to 10 page essay and make sure it sounds really good. Enough to get an A. Fuck all that B and under. Also, I'm going to review my ass off for Global and Algebra. Later on today, I'm finally going to pick up my prom dress from being tailor and lets see how that comes off. I have to figure some things out for this week coming. But study, study, and study is my main focus right now.

I'm just being really lazy today. Two more days for prom and like a week and a half for regents. I'm sick so I'm just laying in my bed right now, wishing my boyfriend was here to make me soup and just take care of me. I'm sleepy and I think I'm going to nap soon. Today has been one of those days, that you just feel ugly.

Beautiful breezy chill days with boyfriend.

People always call me reckless because I always go by with what feels right and never with the thought of what is going to happen tomorrow.