I just finished watching Titanic with my mother and now i'm searching the behind scenes of it and the history behind this boat. This film is just so speechlessly beautiful. Nothing can ever compare it. No matter how many times i watch this movie, i fall in love with it more. I find things that i didn't see the last time i saw it. I've watched this movie so many times, i've lost count. The first time i saw it was in the theaters when it came out, which was on the year of 1997 because my mom wanted to watch it. I can't remember my reaction to it because it was so long ago. But now, i'm always crying every time i watch this movie. I love films. Every film always gets to me some way. This has to be one of my favorite movies, probably the first and then comes Eternal Sunshine Of the Spotless Mind. And that's not even including my favorite anime movies. I liked that i spent this night with my mom. I need more nights like those.

I'm very sleepy but i want to watch at least one episode of Naruto or more before i sleep. Yesterday was great. Everything about it lifted me up. I can just kiss the grounds of it. I still haven't done my college essay, lol. Oh man, i can't slack already. I have to work on it tomorrow and i also have to call those jobs. Ah, i'm so full of shit sometimes, lmao, i always tell myself, i'm going to work out and do this and that and i never do it because, well, i get lazy. Laziness is the worst enemy i'll ever have. Shakes fist*

There's alot of things i want to do in life. Travel to the places that i desire, get over my fears, laugh as if i were a free woman, inspire people, watch more films of every type, read more, paint, learn how to cook, learn how to love more, dance when ever i want to, be late, sleep how ever and where ever, be more of a neat person, cherish the person that i hold hands with a lot more, eat all the sweets and food i want, work out, get drunk, work to get money, cry as much as i want and when ever, sing as if no one was listening, smile even if i'm a lone, embrace the surroundings around me, taste the goals that i have in life, become what i want to become, be a wonderful mother, be a fantastic wife, bake and bake, buy more plants, buy more colorful socks, buy more over size sweaters, live in the moment, let go of the useless, be more understanding, listen more, learn how to view everyone as a teacher, learn something new every day and share it with someone who you think doesn't know it yet, drown someone with my music taste, share stories, listen to stories, write more, share every side, every broken piece, every joy, every pain with someone that i adore, sleep at the beach, visit the beach more, have sexual intercourse in all the places that i dream about, become more free, have a more clear and happy state of mind, live more, walk around my house naked, sleep naked, cook naked, do any work or writings naked, just be free, eat hot dogs once in a blue more often, eat right, sky dive, swim naked, walk along the beach late at night, believe more, hike, bike, catch more snowflakes on my tongue, save more animals, stop comparing myself to people and love the person i am, tell myself that i am beautiful, give my soul to someone who i completely trust, finish writing my book, finish a painting, be with someone who i can do anything with, watch more sunsets, walk more barefoot, speak more, sleep more, stress less, let go of people when they are no longer good use for my soul, make more silly faces, feed upon more knowledge,... there's just so much things to do in life and such little time. Knowing that, upsets me.