It really does suck not being able to have spent the day with you as planned but we do have the hope of tomorrow and saturday which i hope goes exactly the way i want it to go. I just need to step out of my house and walk a few blocks and then i will believe that i will be seeing you. I really miss smelling you or just having your scent around me. I just miss you, dearly. Besides you, i miss one other person in bowne and that's just Cadet. Everyone else can keep themselves with their drama. My neck really hurts from the work out i was trying to do yesterday, which sucks because i will be going to the gym tonight to attend this spin class and then this intense abs work out. Hopefully it works. I'm thinking of just attending the spin class because the intense abs work out is a lot later and then that means there will be a lot more people since it's around 8. Or i might just go later, like in a hour or so and just do some tread mill and get on a machine that works out my stomach area so i won't be around too many people. Ah, now writing all about it, i don't even want to go, i just want the machines in my house so i can work out for as long as i want too, barefoot, taking as much breaks as i want and i'll be able to sing. I want to sing while i work out. The only reason i am going is because my dad wants me to go. I mean i do have my reason on wanting to get more fit and stuff but he is the one who keeps bugging me about it, telling me that i will be happy with my results. Even though he is true. It just sucks that he'll be disappointed if i don't go to the gym. But here i go again, putting some one's needs before mine. I think i'm just going to talk to him and not go any more. I do much better when i'm working out at home anyway. I just have to start eating right. I did look up some interesting articles about skin care, how to lose belly fat and all that good stuff. So i'll be alright. And besides my dad would be saving 35 dollars a month to something more worth it then spending it on me, who goes to the gym when she feels like it. Anyway, i'm rambling to much.