I felt so out of it today and i still do, thinking about it. I know what's wrong and i guess i might just know how to fix it. But i don't want to right now because i rather not think as i write this or think about fixing how i feel right now. The book that i'm reading for english today has really got me thinking. I read so much today and i'm probably ahead of the majority of the class, besides a selected few who finished the book first hand. But whatever, moving along, this book hasn't changed my state of mind and how i view things but it has opened another opinion for me. The main character in this book just goes with the flow of his daily routine, the things he needs to do in order to keep existing as in work and buy food and all that etc stuff. But he doesn't follow society, he tells the truth because he feels like there isn't any point of lying when at the end it will get you no where and the fact that he doesn't care much to even lie about anything. The reason why he is so careless and so causal with his life and everything that happens to him because everything in life is just pointless to him because everyone's going to die when their limit comes. The main character also thinks there's no point of asking questions because at the end of the day, those questions and answers won't matter to anyone anymore. But I feel like having that state of mind will just make you miserable and then the other half of me feels like this state of mind might just be the way to think. If you really think about it, this state of mind leads you into freedom. And who doesn't want that? Well enough on that matter, majority of today was so wack. I wish i slept the day away. I feel like i deal with to much emotions and thoughts for no reason. Grow some balls Janiri. I have to start making myself a priority. To start that off, i got what i wanted which was a ginger ale. This makes me happy. Indeed it does.