I often think that i haven't changed much and that i'm not as happy as i think i am because of this or that. I often think of what use to haunt me.

But looking at my old blog and everything that belonged to me around that time, i changed drastically. Into everything i thought i couldn't be. You or no one will ever come to understand how accomplished i feel or how  much i actually improved. And i say this because i never let anyone in when i was dealing with the things i was at the moment because i didn't want to let anyone in.  I didn't think anyone was worth sharing my pain with. And plus, no one really sat down with me and asked me how i was doing? Everyone did think they knew what was going on. But they were wrong and they made everything worse because of their judgements. But that's all done and behind. I just know the people i knew back then, didn't really care. Nonetheless, i will always write a post about this subject. Why? Because of the improvement. My way of acting, My aura, My state of  mind, My beliefs, My views have completely changed. I've only kept a little of who i was and what was my interests on certain things. Even my old blog has a completely different aura than this one. And everytime i happen to come across it, like today, i feel so sorry for myself and what i allowed myself to go through.

Everything literally everything, has changed. Even the people. I'm happy though. Really happy. Although, i have my moments that i think i'm miserable, i'm still really happy. And in some sense, i use to think that i deserved every acute words and action that i've received.  Growing up and moving on from that time of my life, i've learned that i never did deserved it. I was to naive to come to that realization earlier.

The few people i have shared this story with, detail by detail, they always tell me that i should write a book about it and maybe i'll inspire someone. But i wouldn't know where to start.