I came back from work not to long ago. And now that i'm working, i feel a bit better with life. I'm not attached to my phone for three hours and that's new to me. But it all feels great. I feel so focused on the things i'm thinking of or doing at the moment at  my job. Today i've been thinking about what to buy Dylan for Christmas and i think i finally got an idea, i hope he likes it. I'm really going to try to buy the people who are really close to me Christmas gifts this year. But yes, everyone at my job is nice and understanding with me. I found out today that they can put your checks into your debt cards or etc and that's awesome because no tax is taken away. So that means more money. :] Tomorrow i have SATs at 8 in the morning and that will take 4 hours of my life and then i will be going to the bank with sister to finally get a debt card and pay things off on ebay and start saving money. I am going to try to see Dylan after all that because i might work on monday and i haven't really spent any real time with him without being rushed because of me being at work at a certain time. So i hope all goes well tomorrow for me and everyone else.

I might watch Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind tonight and then go to sleep and start off my day from then on. 

I can tell you one thing, i'm taking baby steps on getting myself back. I felt it today. It was a small step. But i felt like myself when i took that step. This will all lead into happiness and take me from this dark phase i'm having.

I really hope now that i am dealing with consumers on the cashier and having to speak on the phone with them, some shyness of mine will be melted away.