I use to love the fact that i had so much kittens around my backyard and how they would come every night of the summer and meow for food but now it's just constantly meowing and crying. I understand it's really cold and i hate listening to them be in pain but i can't bring them all into my house, even though i would love it but i just can't. And i wish they didn't have to fight with each other because once again i can't do anything about it. I wish my mom would let them all inside my basement. <3 Besides all that, i deleted an essay i was working on because at that time i was in the "i don't give a fuck" phase but now going to that class and having him to talk to those who didn't do the essay, which was me of course, i felt bad for deleting that essay because it seem like he wanted it. But i'm really tired to start a new one.  My head is just bothering me. I wouldn't call it a headache though. I also got my paycheck today and i wish the amount they were paying me was a bit more but eh, whatever. I have to start somewhere. The online things i bought are taking forever to come to me, so i'm a bit off on buying things from online. It just feels different wasting money that you worked for on things you'll grow out of in a couple of months.