I'm not able to fall asleep. I'm wide awake and I can't help but ponder on thoughts and things that I want. They don't need to happen but I would like for it to happen. It's just weird. I think I'm weird and I'm not just saying this because I feel like it but I am weird. Being in love is such a beautiful feeling. I miss it, I really do. I know I'm young. Loving people is wonderful. It's something everyone should do often. I love to much. And I'm not a shame of it. I'm such a sucker for love. Despite how much I get hurt, I'll love the next person with more passion. I'm not the other way around like other people. I'm just not. It's not my style. Love is something we should all hold onto because I believe it's the only thing real besides believing in someone. That's also something beautiful. Giving someone a piece of your soul, your heart and your secrets, it's not a bad thing to do. Quite frankly, you can't just give that to anyone. You have to be sure it's someone who can keep your secrets safe and your dreams alive. I find everything beautiful and maybe that's a problem people would think I'll have. But it's not. I like the way I think. Yes, people have tried to destroy it because according to them, that's not how I should be thinking because the world is ugly. No, the world is not ugly. Some people, yes. But the world? No. I have to much passion, faith and energy to give up hope on humanity, on love, and on trust. I endure everything that is around me or that is happening and I learn from it. Transform whatever it may be and make it my strength. But I will never give up on who I am or the things I believe in, because I get hurt.
I'm rambling to much and I'm hungry and I watched to much Grey's Anatmoy tonight. As a result of that, I cried and watching those episodes made me want love again.