There's a lot going on inside my head today and i can't find the words to write it out. But the reason why i'm writing this post is to remind myself that i need to clear out my head sometime soon here because writing makes me feel sane. Not that i feel like i need to feel or be sane or anything like that today but i'm just stating. While i was walking out after i watched Black Swan, i felt the need to have something to my own. A thought, a feeling, or an object. Just anything. Something that no one knows about for a while. It's hard to explain. But the reason why i'm even wanting this is because i feel like every part of me isn't mine. Everyone has a part of who i am and what's inside my mind. But this time, i want to feel like i still have something that belongs to me. Something that will make someone work hard to find out instead of me just telling them. I know this all makes sense but this isn't everything that i'm thinking about. I shall leave it as it is for now.