There's never a problem to share what's bothering you to someone and when you think that there is or when you're afraid of sharing what you have to say  because you feel like they're going to just give up on you, like last time, there's a problem. Because you're always going to be in that fear. How will you ever trust them again to never leave because of how you feel? Feelings can easily cease with fixing the problem, if you care enough to fix it in the first place. It's hard. I don't know where i'm going. I know where i want to be. And i want to share true happiness with myself. I don't want to look for it any more, in someone else. This explains the mess i'm in, because i'm looking. And i'm tired of doing so. I've been this way because of an event two years ago. I'm always looking for someone to understand me because everytime i explain myself to anyone, it gets all messed up and it comes out the wrong.  My soul feels dirty, currently. Maybe what i'm struggling with right now can help the character i'm going to write about.