Tomorrow I'm going to get my nose pierced with my friend and he's going to pay for it because it's an early birthday gift from him to me. I'm pretty excited. It's going to be a tiny stud, probably on the left side of my nose. I can't sleep and I hate that I can't. I literally want everything and I always want to keep majority of those whom I speak to, to be around me. But I can't seem to want you. I can't seem to miss you. And it's not anger when it comes to this, I just can't miss you. I just really can't miss you and that doesn't bother me at all. I have other people who I rather miss. You wouldn't let me breathe either if I did keep you around. The things you've said to me made me so numb and confused, which I let happen of course but because of that, I am where I am at. You were such a huge impact in my life just like someone else was and I didn't expect for things to be the way it is now. But just going through what we went threw has made me so a bit lost. I don't what's real or not sometimes. But my faith in believing has made me not become so cruel to anyone. My faith has made me want to keep believing that there is good out there, that there is someone who won't treat me bad or lie to me when it's not needed because they know how strong I am. My faith has made me want to love more and passionate. You see, that's where you went wrong, you lied to me because you thought I was weak. You underestimate like everyone does. Being around people will make me better and being around my own company as well. Drowning myself into songs as well. Living life and being all around the place, until I find something worth staying in one place for as well will make me all better.
I truly wish the best for you though.
Because hey, everyone deserves happiness.
