Sigh, a big shit load of Sighing

My sister just left with her boyfriend and now she is on her way to Texas. A new life. I did everything that I could of done to help them out move all the boxes and organize everything into Henry's car which was very helpful because I was great at it. Helping them out and assuring them that everything will fit, which did made my mood a lot better then it was from the morning. Speaking of the morning, I went to church with sister, her boyfriend and both of my parents. It felt weird, only because I haven't been there for so long but yet it felt nice. I never knew what to say when I was praying so I was being grateful with the thank yous I said. I'm going to miss my sister physically a whole lot. It won't be the same, although we are phone call away, a text a away, a webcam session and  hours away. It just won't be. I didn't know whether to cry or not. I wanted to cry but I couldn't because I was so damn proud and happy for her. I really am and I will always be. I do look forward to this new friendship me and her will have and I can't wait to go visit her in the summer. I swear, I'm going to save money for that trip as soon as I get this job at Rite Aid because without no doubt, I'm going to get hire. We all had dinner together and that was nice. I didn't really know how I should of acted today around my sister because she was annoyed with everything going on and basically making her stressed out. So I gave her space. Which I know she's okay with. I wish we went ice skating together. But there's always next winter for that. Her leaving makes me want to work harder on studying to pass those two regents so she can be there for my graduation because that's the only thing holding me back. I'm just really proud of her and I will keep contact with her because I refuse to have another relationship like me and my big brother who lives in P.A. There's a lot of things that I'm struggling with at this point of my life. Little phases that I hope will pass. I'm going to miss them a whole lot.