This week has been quite a shitty one. First was getting use to my sister not being here and I think I'm okay with how things are going.  Dealing with stuff that is pointless. Me and my mom running into little problems but we talked it out today while I was eating an apple. But despite this week being so crappy, thursday and friday has been the highlight of my week. I was with friends, mainly in the city and it felt so good being around laid back and awesome vibes. And even though it was just for the moment, they made me feel content with where I'm at in life even if I am heartbroken and empty feeling. Just to feel something that beautiful and push these feelings away made me happy. I spent alot of hours with them as well. I constantly speak to my sister because I miss her dearly much and its hard knowing that I can't crawl into her bed and sleep with her when I'm feeling lonely or when I just need someone to cry too. It's hard but I know I'll be alright. My birthday is coming soon and I'm just waiting until it does. I'm excited about turning 18 but I don't have any plans besides going to a club with some girls from my old job later on that weekend and hopefully going out with family to have a dinner. I haven't heard anything from my recent job and it sucks because I already want to officially start working and get some money. If I don't hear anything from this job until my birthday I'm going to start applying in the mall and at the city, mainly in soho. Being in the city yesterday made me love it more. Running into those little shows people have on the streets and singing crews made everything so lovely, oh besides eating two pizzas, a strawberry smootie and a cookie and cream cupcake.

Tonight, I'm going out with the girls from my old job to the movies.