Sometimes and if not all the time, I feel like I'm too of a good girlfriend to be with anyone. No cockyness intended. It's quite hard to explain but it all makes sense inside my head. I care a whole lot, love and I make sure the person is completely comfortable and happy with me and just everything in their lives. I'm always supporting everything my current boyfriends likes, hobbies or goals. I don't know. I guess it isn't as easy to explain as I thought it would be. I'm quite emotion when I get attached or just when I start to care a whole lot for someone. Maybe I'm just to much for anyone to deal with? Or perhaps I haven't felt like anyone is able to handle everything I offer and feel yet. It's like, when something is wrong, I'm willing to fix it and make it all better and then letting it go. I'm all super happy at times and it's so easy to keep me happy. I don't know what it is, for sure. I just know I keep losing myself and finding myself. It's been a repeat of that for a while now. When I finally feel like I find myself, something knocks it and I sort of have to start all over. It's better though. I mean, I find myself in a better state of mind after but I just don't feel like people around me have patience to stick around for it and just help me. I just have to keep working on making myself button proof and living in the present.
It's just an emotional night for me.
