I woke up today to pee not to long ago and I'm hurting but it's because I feel like I deserve it because I know exactly what to do to get out of it. I wanna go back to school but I can't. Not this semester at least. I just want to become what I want to become. Fuck everything else and how I felt last night, I can get up and change this.


Smile smile smile smile smile smile smile

Be happy be happy be happy be happy be happy


Im in love with who I was becoming, I can get back on track.

This feeling is to familiar.

I can't stop wanting to cry about where I am in life. It's like I keep going back and forth with myself and my mental state of mind. I feel the way I felt in freshman year. Where I felt suffocated to be myself. But no one does this to me, but myself. I let this feeling consume me as if it were home sweet home. But it's horrible, it tears me apart, it makes me feel lost within everyone I know, it makes me have the nerve to blame everyone in my life for this feeling but all in all, it's noones fault but my own.