This feeling is to familiar.

I can't stop wanting to cry about where I am in life. It's like I keep going back and forth with myself and my mental state of mind. I feel the way I felt in freshman year. Where I felt suffocated to be myself. But no one does this to me, but myself. I let this feeling consume me as if it were home sweet home. But it's horrible, it tears me apart, it makes me feel lost within everyone I know, it makes me have the nerve to blame everyone in my life for this feeling but all in all, it's noones fault but my own.