Today i'm going to my god mother's house. A house full with family on every floor. I can't wait to see my cute grandmother. <3 But other than that, Good Morning. My sleeping patterns are all fucked up, if you haven't noticed. Last night, i went to sleep around 6 with my sister and than woke up around 11:20ish. Why? I don't know why. I'm not even tired anymore. But i would of loved more sleep.  Boyfriend is still sleeping. He sleeps to much, haha. I want to read some manga but i don't know where i am at in Naruto, to start. Instead of watching anime at the present moment, i'm going to catch up on manga, so me and boyfriend can finally talk about it and get excited over it. Today feels like a great day. Thank you for letting me wake up. I don't know who i am thanking, specificity, but it's nice to be grateful out loud. I hope everyone has a great day ahead of them.

So i finished Darker Than Black not to long ago. I really liked it. But it felt like it should of ended on episode 26 instead of episode 27. Episode 27 had nothing to do with the story line, through me off topic actually. No, no, I think it ruined the anime actually. But there are two series left and i'm not to sure if i'm actually going to watch it. I feel like there's no need because Darker Than Black already finished, these two series are just two series with different story lines. And i know this because i watched a couple of episodes of the different series. Anyway, i don't know what's next for me. Maybe sleep.

Never leave the one you accomplish your dreams with for the one you discuss your dreams with.

Our happiness has a lot of significance to me. So i hope you are utterly truly happy with me because you can expect the same from my side. I'm more than glad to know that we are just getting stronger. You don't understand how quickly this love that i have towards you just keeps on growing. Yes, sometimes you annoy me. Maybe, more than sometimes. But at the end of the day, it all makes me smile. To find warmth in my own skin and feel like i'm home everytime i'm with you, feels like heaven. It's my heaven. You are sleeping right now and i'm so selfish that i don't want you to be sleeping. I want you here, speaking to me. Texting or whatever the case is. I can't wait for you to wake up and feel refreshed. I can't wait to see that smile on your face. I am more than thankful for you. Know that and remember it. <3 I can't wait for monday. We make 8 months.

I'm awake again. I can never have a decent sleep. I'm to scared. I'm scared of non-existing things. My head hurts.

I feel so hopeless.

Because old pictures will never get old.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OKprKZHYfl0&feature=player_embedded

Haha, to this song. <3333
She's so lovely and beautiful.
Why did the lyrics make my night a lot better?

The last post i posted up became a draft. I didn't want people knowing how i really felt. So i hope no one read it. And if you did, just know that things will be alright for me. I just need to rant some times about things that would not bother me a few hours later from when i wrote it. But most likely, would come up again. But enough of that, i need a hug.

I am still debating on whether to get facebook back. There's something stopping me.

I want to feel beautiful everyday.

My shoes finally came. <3 :D

I've been meaning to post this picture up. I love how we are doing the same face expression, sort of, and we didn't even tell each other. Don't you just love that? When you're taking a picture with someone and they do the same face expression as you? It makes you smile and it makes the picture feel connected. The past few days i've realized that, i can't just run away and end things because of a problem that can easily be forgotten and worked on due to the amount of love and spirit we have. It doesn't make any sense. I won't learn that way. But things will change this time around, on both parts. 

I can't wait to have an apartment with you, go food shopping and cook breakfast, lunch, dinner and deserts. I can't wait to be able to sleep with you every night and wake up to your stinky breath. I can't wait to know that i can wake up when ever in the middle of the night and just kiss you. I can't wait to share a future with you.

Open your eyes, this world does not get any prettier.

Trying to get my trust back is very slim and that goes to anyone that i will ever know and that i know now.
I hate lairs. And i know that i am one too, but i am only define as a white lair. I only lie to my mother sometimes on where i am at and who i am with and to teachers which is only based on excuses from being absent or why i didn't do homework. And when they believe me, they're to naive. Because i'm not even a good liar. Other than that, you will get the fully truth out of me. Nonetheless, i can't even lie beyond the two examples i gave you guys. I will feel to horrible.

I will never understand how and why people would even go through the trouble to lie. What is it really getting you? Where are you going with those lies you vomit? The thing about lying with me is that i will find out regardless on what the hell you tell me. Let it be the that very second, days after or months. But i will find out and when i do, you are no longer respected by me nor trusted. Lying does not make anything better. Lying does not get you far in life. Yes, the truth hurts. But i rather be hurt by the truth than lies. Lies make people feel like they aren't worth the truth. When people tell you that they are lying about something because they care about you, well it's quite the opposite.

When anyone lies, it's testing the intelligence of the person they are lying too.
I deal with enough at home so i don't need to be tangled in your webs.
The point is, i hate lairs.

And if i continue to speak to someone who has lost my trust, i am barely listening or it can simply mean that i can't imagine my life without you or it can be both. The majority of it all, i will cut you out of my life if i have too.

And if one takes back what they lost, it will mean a lot and our bond will  be a lot stronger. But trust me dearly so, it will take a very long time for this to ever happen. So if you want to stay in my life, you are better off being honest.

I'm starting to like the way i look with curly hair and red lipstick! (:

Welcome My Dear Sweet November.

You are as cold as i can remember.
I hope you find comfort in the joy you squeeze out when your day comes.
Which is Thanksgiving.
Please give food to everyone who doesn't have a home.
And for those who have a home, Let them have a great meal and time.
Each and one of them deserve it, I tell you.
Always be sure to come again next year.