Tomorrow is a big day for me and i can't wait to see how i do. I need to bring some water and candy with me so i can be hyper enough to the point that i won't get nervous or shy or anything of that sort when i ask for information and or speak. But before all that takes place, i am going to hang out with Dylan for a couple of hours and we are going to BestBuy really quick to check out this new phone that i want which is a Motorola Bravo. It's really cute and it's touch screen. This Wednesday coming up, i will be getting paid a lot more than what i got before. I've been dying to get some canvas and art supplies so that needs to be in my hands pretty soon. After i paint a few things, i'm going to rearrange my room and probably re-paint it again. I'm a lot less stressful because i got the application for CUNY all done. I applied to:
- Queens College
- Hunter College
- Brauch College
- QueensBorough College
- Borough of Manhattan Community College
- Laguardia Community College

In all honestly, i really just want to get into Queens College.

I want my smile to be your favourite kind of smile.

Today has been such a great day. I haven't had a day like this in a long time and it feels so good. Also i had a quite a blast at work, i'm getting along pretty well with everyone there and Janiery. Did i tell you guys? She has the same name as me, it's just spelled differently and she's dominican too haha :D We have other things in common as well but that's another story. I can't wait to have my own shift on Saturday where i'm working on my own at the cashier! WOOP AH, yesterday me and Dylan made 9months and it was nice. Mhm, we ate food and drank a little bit. I am really proud of myself because i've been going to all my classes early and all. :] Ou, and my report card average was a 81. :]

Tehe

Oh John Lennon, why haven't i melted in your songs a lot sooner?

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Overall, today was a pretty decent day, despite some of the things that really got on my nerves.  Anyway, tomorrow i am getting my very first pay check. I can't wait. As soon as i get that, it's going straight to my debt card and then travel back to Dylan and eat at a buffet for dinner to celebrate our 9 months. I'm going to wear this pretty black dress with gold on it. Ah, Saturday will be my first day at the cashier for four hours straight,5 to 9, i'm sure i'll be able to do it but i'm pretty nervous and excited. BUAH! i feel like exploding with this emotions. I also trimmed my bangs not to long ago. Soon enough i'll buy an iphone for myself. <3

Having money that you earned feels so good.

Because he wanted to take a picture.

I just wanted to say that it's suppose to snow later on today and tomorrow. <3
I can't wait.
I love snow so much.
It gets me more excited for Christmas.
Two and a half more weeks until my break and Christmas. Whoop Whoop!
And then New Years.
Oh man! (;
I really need to buy more winter clothes.
And get that coat i saw in Old Navy. So cutee.
Oh and i'm almost done with my essay.

Baby bagels with cream cheese is yummy. <3

What am i doing this Sunday?

The usual. Cleaning my room, cleaning the bathtubs, missing him, going food shopping with my mom and doing homework. Cleaning my room makes me want to re-decorate it. But i'm just not sure where i should put things to make it look really welcoming and nice. I also want to buy more things so i can hang it up on my wall. But i will do all of this after Christmas so i can be able to save some pay checks.  I really want to spend Christmas with him and New Years. I have to do an essay for my government and i will actually do it because i have to start going to his class and doing his homework. Not that i'm not passing but i want a higher grade.

Today made me feel a lot closer to you.

I like pictures that show my birth mark on my right shoulder and my collar bones.

Katy Perry - Firework

I can't stop playing this song over and over on my itunes.

I came back from work not to long ago. And now that i'm working, i feel a bit better with life. I'm not attached to my phone for three hours and that's new to me. But it all feels great. I feel so focused on the things i'm thinking of or doing at the moment at  my job. Today i've been thinking about what to buy Dylan for Christmas and i think i finally got an idea, i hope he likes it. I'm really going to try to buy the people who are really close to me Christmas gifts this year. But yes, everyone at my job is nice and understanding with me. I found out today that they can put your checks into your debt cards or etc and that's awesome because no tax is taken away. So that means more money. :] Tomorrow i have SATs at 8 in the morning and that will take 4 hours of my life and then i will be going to the bank with sister to finally get a debt card and pay things off on ebay and start saving money. I am going to try to see Dylan after all that because i might work on monday and i haven't really spent any real time with him without being rushed because of me being at work at a certain time. So i hope all goes well tomorrow for me and everyone else.

I might watch Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind tonight and then go to sleep and start off my day from then on. 

I can tell you one thing, i'm taking baby steps on getting myself back. I felt it today. It was a small step. But i felt like myself when i took that step. This will all lead into happiness and take me from this dark phase i'm having.

I really hope now that i am dealing with consumers on the cashier and having to speak on the phone with them, some shyness of mine will be melted away.

I need a break.