I'm finally sleepy. Sleepy enough to sleep on my own. I'm so happy i finally want sleep and sleep is right here in front of me. To sleep, to feel safe, to be happy. When i'm awake, my life falls apart. When i'm dreaming, i meet beautiful people and i'm so beautiful.

Where the body goes, the mind will follow.

I remember wanting 10 more minutes to sleep this morning, to ask questions to the unknown souls that creep inside my dreams.

The result of that is, lucid dreaming because i asked questions that i wanted to ask and i hugged them because i made myself do so and of course, over sleeping and waking up late. I won't fail any class though.

If i would spill out every detail of my life onto this blog, i would be in a lot of trouble.

At the end of the day, it's my opinion.

You know what i find unattractive in this world now a days? Is the half shaved girls that walk among this earth. I don't understand nor will i ever understand why girls are shaving half of their heads. It's not cute at all. I just don't think it looks right. I mean, unless you want to be a boy, by all means shave half of your hair off and grow some balls. The point of this post is just to state that i find it really unappealing and that i think it's quite to boyish for a female's face. It's like the girl's are confused. They don't know whether they want to shave their hair off or keep it.

If i let you use anything of mine, i expect to get it back the same way i gave it to you. It upsets me when someone messes up the things i kindly share because it's mine and you have no idea if i worked hard to have it the way it is. And okay, lets say you do mess up anything that i've ever given you, at least tell me when i ask you about it. Don't just tell me "I didn't do it". When i KNOW it had to be you since you were the only person using it. That makes me not want to share with you anymore. Because not only, you messed up my personal things but you aren't telling me the truth when i ask you. There's nothing wrong with the truth. Nothing. And if you were to tell me the truth, then just maybe, i'll share my personal things with you just one more time because of that honestly.

Exactly two months until my birthday.

I've already startled looking for dresses to wear that day and the weekend.

I don't think you'll find someone who paints their nails and watches movies as much as i do.

Maybe i am a movie fanatic. I always spend my time watching movies and movies and movies. I just finished watching My Sister's Keeper and it made me cry. Time to finish Origin: Spirits of the past. <3

I can already tell my mom needs to feel like we still need her. She offers to do everything for us even if she sees us doing it already. She serves us food and gets everything that we need to eat while eating as in drinks and napkins. My mom is already showing me that she doesn't want me to leave her nest so quickly like my sister did by being a bit protective over me lately. I mean, i understand because i guess that's how every mother is. There isn't a mother out there who wants to feel like her own kids don't need her anymore. But they have to let us go when the time comes so we can learn on our own. That's the thing that parents, (i should say) doesn't realize that we would always need them.

If you guys didn't already know, Black Swan is my second favourite movie. <3 And if you guys didn't already know what's my first favourite movie is, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.

There's a lot going on inside my head today and i can't find the words to write it out. But the reason why i'm writing this post is to remind myself that i need to clear out my head sometime soon here because writing makes me feel sane. Not that i feel like i need to feel or be sane or anything like that today but i'm just stating. While i was walking out after i watched Black Swan, i felt the need to have something to my own. A thought, a feeling, or an object. Just anything. Something that no one knows about for a while. It's hard to explain. But the reason why i'm even wanting this is because i feel like every part of me isn't mine. Everyone has a part of who i am and what's inside my mind. But this time, i want to feel like i still have something that belongs to me. Something that will make someone work hard to find out instead of me just telling them. I know this all makes sense but this isn't everything that i'm thinking about. I shall leave it as it is for now.

Today has been a great day as well. A great full day for the new year. I spent the whole day basically with my sister, her boyfriend and my brother. I woke up to a turkey, cheese and  bacon flat bread with some orange juice. I hung out for a little with all of them and watched my brother and my sister's boyfriend play zombies. Then  a couple of hours later we decided to go to the movies and watch Black Swan. Black Swan was fucking amazing, guys. It had such beauty linking in every scene. It's a movie, i would love to re-watch <3 and i think everyone should watch it. After seeing Black Swan, we ate some subways and now were home. I feel like cleaning my room, painting my nails gray and relaxing whiling watching films. By the way, i currently found another movie of Audrey Tautou. :D

Fuck yeahh!!!! Great way to start the newww yearrrr <3333