Harp Music Harpist Concert A bird came flying

When i go into college, i'm going to learn the harp. Especially since i'll have money to buy this instrument. I don't care how huge this will look next to me, it's to beautiful for me not to learn it and play for someone.

I'm not able to fall asleep. I'm wide awake and I can't help but ponder on thoughts and things that I want. They don't need to happen but I would like for it to happen. It's just weird. I think I'm weird and I'm not just saying this because I feel like it but I am weird. Being in love is such a beautiful feeling. I miss it, I really do. I know I'm young. Loving people is wonderful. It's something everyone should do often. I love to much. And I'm not a shame of it. I'm such a sucker for love. Despite how much I get hurt, I'll love the next person with more passion. I'm not the other way around like other people. I'm just not. It's not my style. Love is something we should all hold onto because I believe it's the only thing real besides believing in someone. That's also something beautiful. Giving someone a piece of your soul, your heart and your secrets, it's not a bad thing to do. Quite frankly, you can't just give that to anyone. You have to be sure it's someone who can keep your secrets safe and your dreams alive. I find everything beautiful and maybe that's a problem people would think I'll have. But it's not. I like the way I think. Yes, people have tried to destroy it because according to them, that's not how I should be thinking because the world is ugly. No, the world is not ugly. Some people, yes. But the world? No. I have to much passion, faith and energy to give up hope on humanity, on love, and on trust. I endure everything that is around me or that is happening and I learn from it. Transform whatever it may be and make it my strength. But I will never give up on who I am or the things I believe in, because I get hurt.
I'm rambling to much and I'm hungry and I watched to much Grey's Anatmoy tonight. As a result of that, I cried and watching those episodes made me want love again.

Morning Sunshine

Sometimes when I look at patterns or tripping designs, I see faces. Faces, that aren't familiar. And it's always for those few seconds I'm looking at the pattern. I always see this on my carpet and they're always looking back into my soul.

This is just the fucking best.
The end.

JOB HUNTING TODAY.

Yesterday, I found out that my sister is moving to Texas in about two weeks. I'm overly happy for her that she's ready to have a life of her own. I'm going to miss the hell out of her but that's alright because i can visit her when ever i feel like it in the summer time. <3 Gah, i can't wait for that, to take trips and sleep over. The thing that sucks is i won't be able to share clothes with her anymore, lmao. But it's okay, clothes can be replaced. Other than, this news, i took my two regents that i had to take this week. Which hopefully i passed. I'll be damned if i don't.
Yesterday was also a perfect day, the feelings, the events, the things said and the food.

Whenever I feel like I need attention, it's because you're lacking it. Not because, I'm some needy girl who complains and begs. NO. It's not like that all. This doesn't just go directly to me, when anyone feels like they need attention is because they're lacking it in their lives or is not getting the right attention. That's all. Were all humans, and there's no need to look into our emotions and question everything we feel because sometimes, things are the way things are.

Every time i shower, i like shaving everything and after wards painting my nails bright colors. I feel all new and relaxed. I just finished eating some sliced up pears with a fork. I like eating my fruits, all sliced up and with a fork. Always, just always.

I'm getting so over the edge excited because my birthday is coming soon.

Snowed in, I am. It feels quite lovely though. I'm going outside in a little bit with my sister to take some pictures and play a little in the snow. I haven't done that all winter and since it's snowing so much, I shall take advantage.

I wish it would snow more so the algebra regents can be cancelled. I'm really going to try my best and i'm sure i will  do better because i had some tutoring for the pass few weeks. After this, is global time. I'm really hoping i can devour some chinese food soon, my cravings are going crazy and chinese food is the main thing right now. I'm job hunting but i'm not job hunting hard enough.

I swear, if i didn't have such a great friend like johanna this year, i would completely screwed. She's really the only motivation i have to go to school now a days because me being a senior makes me to the uttermost of my laziness. So i'm done with my essay, thanks to her. Now i'm watching The Human Centipede until i have to get ready for work.



I'm very anxious for Friday.

I adore passionate and gentle kisses, while the edges of my body is being caress.