Writing out the last post and reading everything all over makes me feel good because i had a great year with beautiful and wonderful people and now i'm ready to let go of 2010 and start over and embrace everything my life has to offer with open arms and mind.

Farewell 2010, you've been a hell of a year.

I have no clue where to start, where to dig to start this post. I guess i'll start off with the things that were bad about this year, so i can get that out of the way. The drama that crawled out of everyone's mouth when everyone found out that me and Dylan startled to have a relationship, the one friend who i thought was going to stick around showed me her true colors and i'm happy that friendship ended as quickly as it did because no one wants something negative like that in their life, the problems that had to be dealt with because when you care about someone you want to work things out no matter what the situation is, the stress of applying to college and staying on top of your grades when all you want to do is stay home and sleep, the tiny bit of depression that i swelled into in the middle of the year. But all in all, through the bad events of this year, i've learned a lot. And i'm not just saying that to say it, i really have. I learned some layers of myself that i never knew existed and i also let new layers form in making me a happier, positive and stronger minded person. The good things, of course weigh out the bad and i'm happy that it does. I'm happy that i've spent this year with great memories and there's one more coming which is tonight's party. I've experience a lot as well through out this year and some are to personal to post on this blog. Meeting Animal Collective this year was probably the cherry on top of everything that did happen. I like how my friendship with Cadet has grown and it will keep growing because our personalities blend well. My relationship with my mother has come to a better understanding of each other. Ahhh, i also loved how i got to experience banana muffins. So damn good. I'll never forget those people who made me feel on top of the world when i needed too. One thing that i'll always be glad about is the relationship me and Dylan had and is still forming. Every day after school we'll spend time with each other, talking, eating and watching anime. Those are days to live for. Getting my first job this year was pretty sweet too, since i've already learned a lot. But i already want a new job and i'm already looking into that. This year has made me smile and laugh about more than i thought i was able to do so. Watching movies until morning was one of my favourite things of this year. This beautiful snow has made everything more beautiful and cold. Also this year has taught me how to deal with certain things as well.  2010 has been a great year and tonight, i will make sure it has a great celebration that it deserves. Dylan is coming over in a little bit because we want to see each other before the new year and he'll finally meet my dad. I can't tell you guys, how i'm going to be next year or how things are going to unfold but i know that i can't wait to see how things will be. And besides, as soon as it hits January 1, that makes two more months until my damn birthday. A head start cheer to 2011.

So i just finished Dexter disc 1 Season 3 and when i finished episode three , i then realized it came with just three episodes. I now, i have to return this Disc back and wait impatiently for Disc 2 that comes with four episodes. WHY IS NETFLIX TEASING ME LIKE THIS? I don't like it at all. Oh dear not. Well now, i'm just listening to The Smiths and thinking about how i want a sweater with the number 3 on it because it's my favourite number. I can't sleep so late today because i have a long day ahead of me and hopefully all goes well. New Years Eve is tomorrow and ah, i can already taste the freshness of it. I don't care where i am at, i am going to dance, drink the night away and be with people whom i love.

Dexter is in my life again, and i am dedicated all over.

I want some icecream sandwiches! NOM! I'm getting some after i get off of work. NOMNOM!

I just finished watching another film which Audrey Tautou played in. The film was also in French and it's called, He loves me, He loves me not. I adore her. I think she's so cute. The next movie i'm going to watch is Priceless, she also plays in this too. :] Tonight, i'm up because i can't fall asleep, but not because i feel lonely. I'm glad it's not that tonight. I have work later on and i'm happy that i do. A chance to do something and be outside and interact with people.

Dylan's giving me the chance to pick out one or more out of these lovely masks he found in his attic.

I'm getting the first and fourth one. <333

I really have to pee right now. Why must my brother take forever showers? And why must the second bathroom be forever far?!!!!!!!!!!$#%#@ Ugh, and i'm munching on apple jacks nao making me thirsty and making me think about drinking orange juice which makes me think about how i need to pee really bad. GRRR

Hey guys, i just bought this bag. :]

Hopefully it gets to me as soon as possible. <3

We can't promise anything because life happens and it gets in the way of those promises.

These winds make me feel alone. Everyone is sleeping and maybe i should too. But i don't want too. I never do. And i don't know why. Wait, i actually do know why, i'm just to lazy to backspace now and delete what i just wrote about not knowing why i can't sleep. I rather sleep in the daylight because that is when i feel safe and less lonely. I dream about forgetting the past and being happy with you but it's hard because i'm in pieces and you don't know that yet. You will though, after you read this post. I want that March feeling to last. Why does that happen to relationships? When they hit bumps on the road, they lose the spark they once had. I don't understand. I don't want to understand either. I just want to stop feeling lonely.

It's the worse when your emotions get all tangled up with what you know is right.

I finished watching Happenstance like a couple of hours ago and so far that i've noticed is that French movies are quite weird, but it's those movies you don't want to stop watching because you need to know what the hell is going to happen at the ending. Ah, i'm really hungry and not sleeping. Tacobell sounds really yummy right now. There's a bus stuck in front of my house because the roads are that bad. And the winds sound pretty creepy. I'm not with it.


Other than that, tonight has made me feel like i don't want to know what i really need in life, i just want to live and be happy and know what's right and what's wrong for me and be loved.

Show me that you miss me. I rather embrace the actions of this feeling. Oh baby, show me that you miss me and don't ever tell me.