Just because something was good yesterday doesn't mean it'll be good today. You have to appreciate what you had once you had it and if it's gone tomorrow, just smile.

I always feel like I'm high.

It's this weird feeling that has grown inside of me today. But it's a good feeling, a really good one. I don't feel like questioning anything, taking everything as what it appears to me and leaving it that way. I'm just happy and I feel like when I question things in my life, I hop off that seat and I don't want that. I just want too keep smiling. What I realized today is that it should never matter how far you are going to do something or see someone because as long as you're coming back home happy and not being able to stop smiling in this content feeling should only matter. Everything is just going really nice and I like it.

The color liptsick I got:)
It's orange and pinkish.<3

I had a good day today. Now I'm just dying to go home and eat. I've been dying to pee too. I feel like its eating my kidneys. Yes, it's that serious.

No clue

It's been so hard to actually get along with my mom and it sucks so much. It really tears me apart. It's hard to work with someone who always bluntly or sub consciously compares you to her other daughter all the time. Yes, she has come a really far way and I'm happy for her. But I am my own person and I wouldn't be following the same steps as her. I don't understand why my mom cant figure that out. Ive been having my attitude with her and although I know things shouldn't be handle that way but my mom is weird. I can't be nice to her and expect her to understand me. I keep telling her to stop treating like a 15 year old. But my parents have told me that if I get a job I can basically do whatever I want too do. Which makes me happy of course. And if I have to leave their comfort home to be on my own and show them that I am my own person then I'll freaking do it. I can do anything i put my mind to. It just sucks, it really does.

Hello sweet November

You have been quite a catch.

Hello, I just downloaded an app to blog as much as I want.

I'm utterly excited. Now I can blog while I walk or wait for my coffee. Ahhhh, well good morning blog and it feels so good to be back. I've been selling little parts of my soul to the Internet. As in tumblr, twitter and the usual Facebook. I should stop right!? I think I should. Sell my soul to art and reading. I am reading this book by the name of eat pray love and it's amazing. I actually have to renew it today.

I can never get to personal here, as I've noticed. I can never give this blog full blunt details about my days, weeks, months, years and pains. Of course the endless happiness as well. I can never explain in full explanation  why I feel a certain way and what's causing it. I don't want to sell my soul anymore. It's mine and only mine. No more sharing, offering the love I know to give but never give for myself. I need to devour myself in all that I know and learn from it before I even think of calling anyone mine. There are of course, reasons and good ones, why I feel this way. Why I have been feeling like this. It's just  not me anymore, well for the moment at least. I don't mean the blogging or anything like that. I just mean the sharing and being in relationships and all that bullshit. It makes me vomit. Now, now, now, don't take me as I have lost all my hope for love because I haven't. It burns right on the pit of my stomach bigger and brighter than ever. But I'm just not ready to dance with anyone around this bonfire that sprouts. I come back and forth with you and I like it. I like that I can come here at anytime and anyday, pour my heart out to you and you won't say a thing back, just listen. You are such an amazing listener.

Don't take this as a goodbye, I will see you later from time to time.
I'm on a journey,

As long as i got to love you, I think I'm okay with how things are.

I got myself a bike.

It feels good to know that I have a bike and that I can ride it whenever I want too with out anyone and telling anyone where I'm going. Just fucking ride, where ever your legs end up taking you. It's in my room right now with me. It also feels good to say ' let's fucking bike ride', whenever as well.

It's been a year that I had you.

This blog has been so useful and helpful to me. Sometimes, I wish I can just give it a huge hug for never turning it's back on me and just always being there no matter how much I ignore it. It's a year now and it feels good to know that I can keep something meaningful for a year without a problem.

I blocked someone tonight.

I don't even know the damn person but I blocked her. I just don't want to know that she exist right now even if it's on facebook. The things that connect to her, bother me a whole lot. I over re-act for no reason. I'm just insecure about her and honestly nothing even really fucking caused it in reality sense. I just feel like she offers a little more then me and that makes me feel threaten. Noone knows this of course, yet. I'm just not ready to talk about it to anyone. Tricking your mind is so easy and powerful. Sometimes useful too. I just need this right now. Call me crazy but this makes me happy right now. It's about the NOW.

The refreshment

I startled going to a yoga class with my boyfriend and it's been a week and a half already. I'm utterly in love with it, but hey it's me and I fall in love with pretty much everything life has to offer. I'm just that way. I love everything and I start to learn how to love everyone no matter their flaws. But yoga is teaching me alot of things and I'm learning how to take it in and apply it to my life. I just need some help with everything in my life right now. So this is really good for me. I didn't know I was going through such a complicated thing within myself until tonight. I look forward to yoga every week. Sadly, it's going to start being one day of the week which will be wednesday. I'm meeting alot of people that are quite lovely and with different qualities.